Depression or Suppression?

Depression is a struggle that can be won without medications. I honestly believe this is true. Even when damage or chemicals cause the depression you can handle without medications (that have their own side effects). There were no antidepressants in Bible times. God healed their minds. You only need the Master Physician. 

Depression starts as a single thought. Nip that thought.

 Philippians 3:7 “Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.”      

Yes, i believe it is that simple. God’s plan is He controls the mind.  It can be a daily turnover to Him, a moment by moment sometimes.

Think about it. You do not just wake up one morning depressed. It starts with one thought, a seed allowed to plant. One thought takes root, grows and you begin to cultivate. Suddenly it has multiplied underground, spreading like crabgrass or kudzu, taking over. The mind controls the body and so you get physically ill. . Let God have your mind, that first thought, every time. Give him that thought to pull up and toss like a weed. It will wither and fade, blown away by His power.

If you allow that thought to grow it turns on you. Depression can be physical, chemical, or both simultaneously. My mind was physically altered by a stroke. With my stroke I went through so many changes in my mind. The stroke was a double bleed stroke:

  • Subarachnoid, over the brain
  • Intracranial, into the brain.

The bleeding damaged my brain. Every where the blood flowed it killed cells. This caused:

    Misfiring between healthy cells and dead cells they are meant to connect to, which causes seizures. 
    Depression came from seizure medicine and their side effects; from pain, lack of sleep, and the misfirings. The electrical and chemical current between neurons cannot connect to healthy cells. They bounce back when they hit dead cells. This is ‘mis-wiring’, if you will. Data has to find another path.
    Mis-processing of data input from the mis-wiring causes illusions. Your mind is altered. You can learn to circumvent and connect to proper healthy cell connections. But, the frustration of not being quite right is depressing.

My doctors wanted me on antidepressants. They started arguing their case in the hospital. “You are going to be depressed, suicidal.” I told them I would let God handle my mind. They all but rolled their eyes and bit their tongues. 

Well, it is all true. I have experienced all of them, multiple times. But, I still tell them no. I do take the seizure meds because the misfiring of currents between dead brain and healthy brain is like lightening bolts in your head. My right side is constantly in a Novocain like state; sometimes numb, sometimes tingling. The ‘cold awaking’ feeling like when your arm goes asleep when you lay on it wrong is annoying. I learned to ignore, most of the time. I keep working on it years later.

Neurologist say you have all you are going to achieve by six months after your stroke. They do not know my Master Physician. Sometimes He means for your healing to be a journey, sometimes He commands it instantly.  Mine is a journey.

Some days I lose but, those days are lessening. My mind and body are healing in His time, by His plan. So no antidepressants for me. Antidepressants suppress the mind and can leave you in a fog. They are mind altering. That is God’s job. 

When you see physically disabled people, crippled, living lives of pain, who are at peace and happy, and glorifying God, they are allowing Him to win the battle of the mind. It is always the people who understand the battle in the mind that defeat *satan through The Holy Spirit. 

Sin can also alter the mind and depress you. What you put in it multiplies in your mind and takes over, including media, drugs and alcohol. Depression victim numbers are higher than ever. They got that way by not stopping the process at the first step.

Brain cells are the only cells that do not reproduce. Damage them by injury,?drugs or alcohol and they are permanently lost. You can only use what is in the remaining cells.

Allow God’s Word to multiply in your mind, and your heart will change and hide The Word within. Your mind reads His Word and fills you up leaving no room for depression.

Psalm 119:11 “Your word I have hidden in my heart,
That I might not sin against You.

All of the mind’s problems started with Adam and Eve, they wanted all the knowledge. It has always been the battle between God and *satan. God took them out of the garden, away from the tree of knowledge. Now we have access to about 10%. Mostly, we all use the same 8% (+/-) to function. Each of us varies on the other 2%(+/-). That’s why we need His Word in our mind and each other to be one body in Christ. 

In the Bible every demon that was cast out was from the mind. That’s *satan’s favorite hunting ground and target. The devil started with Adam and Eve, playing word games, deception. The tree of knowledge was hidden. That is why God allows us about 10% usage.

Fortunately, He allows us to acquire and use more when we damage some. I am back to 10%, most days. I am different because some of percentage usage is different. Some came from the same type of cells so I can walk and talk, and basically have a normal life. Some did not and I can be quirky (still working on those). 

I could let all of these changes, uncertainties, depress me. Sometimes it is a struggle. “God why did you let me live only to live in constant pain? To endure ridicule from non-understanding people? To mis- process, suffer from side effects, fight confusion?” But, God.

The Holy Spirit in me was not damaged or depressed from my stroke or medications. Only I can suppress Him. It is a choice, albeit a battle some days. 

The condition of the heart is fed by the mind. That is why *satan wants control of your mind. Trust your mind to God. Use The Holy Spirit left here for us. Feed your mind with scripture, which is God’s sword to slay *satan and his lies. 


First, my verbal/language area was damaged. Please forgive the grammar and diminished writing skills.

Second, the seizure and nuero pain medications make me long-winded. They carry a mania caution. Sadly, many avoid me because if you get me talking I go into talk-a-mania, unfiltered. I speak my mind. Hopefully, I was able to communicate all my thoughts without rambling.

*lower case because he IS one. It is not an error.

Renee’ Green 2018 2020

“Who’s On First?”

Ahh, baseball’s end of season.  Millions are watching to see who will win the World Series.   Who will win, who will lose?  

Some of you are way too young to remember the old comedy routine of Abbott and Costello’s “Who’s On First?” ???????????????

It’s a classic bit of confusion not unlike real life when we get our “game of life” out-of-order.  Life is a game with rules and regulations.  Our problem is in not “reading the Rule book”.  We want to run “home”,  or maybe to “2nd” or “3rd” skipping “1st”.  You cannot score a run to “Home” without running the bases and you have to start with “1st” base.

In our game of life we tend to run after foul or fly balls; chasing around the infield or outfield and totally disregard “1st” base.

Today you may face some curve balls, knuckle balls or spit balls.  You’re going to swing and try to connect.   Don’t look at the pitcher, the catcher … run around the infield or chase out into the outfield   LOOK to “First Base” and start running.  First base is your Lord and Savior.  Without First Base there is no game.  There is no beginning, and no end.  There is no success, no win.

If your life is confusion and mayhem, if you’re playing the game with out the “Rule Book”, His word, then you are going to lose.  You are going to be lost, miserable and empty.  Get into the Word, check your Guide, and head towards First Base.

Psalm 119:105 NASB Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path.”

James 1:5 HCSB “Now if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives to all generously and without criticizing, and it will be given to him.” 2019 (reposted from blog dated 5/31/2013)