So get over it … you are never going to be good enough in your own eyes … for yourself, for your family or especially for God. But, that’s okay. So get over it … now.
God doesn’t love you because you are going to be perfect in Heaven. He does not love you because you are getting better every day, or as L’Oreal says, “you’re worth it”. Get over ‘self’ and telling God your sorry you are not being the child of God He expects.
“I cannot make myself right with God; I cannot make my life perfect. I can only be right with God if I accept the atonement of the Lord Jesus Christ as an absolute gift. Am I humble enough to accept it? I have to surrender all my rights and demands, and cease from every self-effort. I must leave myself completely alone in His hands, and then I can begin to pour my life out in the priestly work of intercession. There is a great deal of prayer that comes from actual disbelief in the atonement. Jesus is not just beginning to save us— He has already saved us completely. It is an accomplished fact, and it is an insult to Him for us to ask Him to do what He has already done.” ~ Oswald Chambers
Do not let satan* lie to you and convince you cannot do something because you are not good enough. Do not consume prayer time everyday telling God how worthless you are and how sorry you are that you are not being a better Christian. There is a time for that, repentance … but, it is not a crutch for not praying for others or doing the work He calls you to do. Spend your prayer time in intercession for others and God will complete His work in you. I will not go into how the Bible directs us to pray (you can read that blog at “Now I Lay Me”.)
Remember, God made you, He saved you. Now move on and do not be stagnant.
“I know the One I have believed in and am persuaded that He is able to guard what has been entrusted to me until that day.” 2 Timothy 1:12b HCSB
Self pity, self-doubt … anything that begins with ‘self’, is going to get you off course. It keeps you from claiming His power. If you don’t, then you will raise children who do not understand His power. Do not fall into satan’s* trap of lies. God loves you just as you are. Claim His love, His power and step out in faith. Otherwise you sit and sour. At the risk of repeating myself (but, it bears repeating), re-read “JUST DO IT” if you need too.
*satan – I know people capitalize the “S” but, I don’t. I refuse to give him any status of importance. He’s a snake, so satan, devil, etc. are lower case, as he is one.
Philippians 4:13 (NASB) “I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”