Ever feel overwhelmed? As a parent when my children were young, there were many times when I just did not know how I could continue on through another day. The worse years started in 1990 when my oldest brother was in his car wreck that ruined his life forever; both my parents had open heart surgery and dad had a stroke on the operating table; I had to deal with my own abnormal tests results. The girls were 4 and 8, they still needed a mom. I was so overwhelmed. I just wanted that year to end. The following year, 1991, was worse. Dad died and I was diagnosed with Lupus which resulted in my being in bed more than out some weeks. Right behind all of this my husband lost his job and then my middle brother was killed in a plane crash. It seemed like unending years. During that time my children would become overwhelmed as well with the issues our family were facing, problems at school, and troubles with friends. Children often do. We do not think of their problems as huge because we can see the big picture, and many times the outcome down the road, if they would only be patient and learn from their trials. Ah, yes, it’s the big picture again. We are to our children, as God is to us. He sees and knows, if we would only be patient and willing to learn.
We had many seasons of trials … it seems we cannot do just one tragedy, we have to have them in groups. It is a shame that God has to re-teach us lessons. Once again this week I have been overwhelmed. Phil has been unemployed for over three years, during which time mom died, Victoria was in the tornado, and later her campus accident that left her elbow in three pieces. NOW … this week the bank is foreclosing on our home and my new 40 hour a week job which includes nights and Saturdays is exhausting me. There are some other issues as well. I let the devil start whispering in my ear that all was lost and hopeless; that I was not up to the task God had set before me and that I was pretty much a useless piece of clay. No, I was not suicidal … but, I was defeated. Oh, the devil loves to have us defeated. But, I have friends and loved ones praying for me and I was praying in earnest for mercy as well. And then He sent friends to me to talk to me, stand beside me and pray, to lift me up.
As God often does, in the midst of my ‘defeat’, He sent someone for me to help while I was down. I had a young girl crumbling before me that was overwhelmed. Like my children, I could see her problems were overwhelming to her, but they would not destroy her. God put me in “mom” mode. I had to turn her to the Scriptures I know so well and tell her to stand on His promises.
Isaiah 42:16 “I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
“No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.”
I shared these and other scriptures with her as she cried. I told her nothing is going to enter our life that is going to take away our Faith. God will provide a way out. Ours is to be faithful, not to solve. Ours is to trust and obey and lean on the everlasting arms. Our burdens are His to carry. Let Him.
I was preaching to myself. God’s timing, God’s plan, God’s will be done. “Keep me leaning on the Everlasting Arms!”.
Thank you all for your encouragement and prayers. I know I am in the palm of His hand and nothing touches me that does not go through Him.
This was an extremely moving post. My heart goes out to you and Phil. I admire your faith and courage. I truly believe that God will provide for you – somehow, someway. Maybe not in the way you’d hope, but in His Way! Stay strong and always know that you have friends all around you that will continue to pray!!
When you have done all you know to do, you simply have to trust Him to guide you through this dark place. You don’t understand and neither does anyone else, but God’s ways aren’t our ways. He sees the big picture while we are looking for answers. He surely has a better plan in store for you two and I’m praying for you to be steadfast and unmovable in all of this. This may be the greatest test your children have seen you endure and could possibly prepare them for future trials. You all have been such true Christian Friends when we didn’t know where to turn and we love you dearly.
So sorry to hear of the foreclosure. I know you have been praying over this for a long time..I too don’t understand God’s timing on that or on a new job for Phil. As you stated and already know- He will provide for both of you. I pray that the Holy Spirit will truly be your comforter as you wait on the Lord to show you His Plan for you and Phil!!!! If I had a big house, I would tell you to just move to Atlanta and live with me!!!
Praying for you…keep me posted.